`Who am I after this? Who am I now? – Suzy Daal´, mixed media and materials, 2020

If every step you take could potentially lead to you bringing death to a loved one, the way in which you move through the world changes.
If someone causes you pain, the way in which you move through the world changes.
`Who am I after this? Who am I now? – Suzy Daal´ researches the paradox of my life in these times. In a painterly way, this installation creates as sense of comfort, a feeling that I´m always longing for but especially so right now. On the other hand, I´m looking for landscapes, for the far away horizon in what I see. I want to leave but I also don´t want to leave. I look out of the window and feel captive. I want freedom but only for as long as I don´t lose my `home´ because of it. I am not good at dealing with change but I´m also not good at dealing with the unchangeable. My finals work takes you on a journey to the discomfort of my personal transformation. It´s a self-portrait and it is confronting.
`Suzy Daal´ is a pun. `Suzy Daal´ stands for `suicidal´. It is raw, personal and the temporary self-emancipation and relief from that feeling.

This installation is my graduation work and the logical result of the ongoing research and growth of the past four years.